Patience.

I feel like I've been lacking it the last few days. I've become so short-fused and irritable.
I really need to change that. Have a bigger heart. Be more understanding.

What drove me off the wall this week? While I never blew up externally, I was broiling on the inside. (In order of WORST to a little less WORSE)

*Man I'm supposed to call my advisor
Dude, I don't know if you are even human. You are so devoted to your personal interests that you don't give a d*mn about anyone else. I know I'm challenged in the field that I chose to major in, but why not take on the challenge of me? At least show a tad of concern? I've never once heard an optimistic phrase from you about me and my future...I went in already being insecure and you just crush my pride even more this week. I despise you and the word MARSH. You're so great at putting on that unsure, soft-spoken, timid facade. I HATE IT.

*So-called "friend"
STOP BAILING ON ME AND CONTACTING ME AT YOUR CONVENIENCE! I'm fed up! In fact, just leave me alone for a while. It just makes me mad when you contact me, I don't know how to respond to you in a polite manner, so I try to cool off before sending you the most generic response I can think of a few hours later. I don't care for your friendship anymore. Don't count on me turning back. I could do the same to you, but that would require me to expend more energy, so I'm quitting instead.

*Strange lady in the library
Okay, if you're going to ask for help, please don't be rude and arrogant. You were so over the top that my co-worker just passed you on to me without thinking twice because she hates dealing with you. Don't sigh and grumble because things aren't working...And don't peruse through Facebook in front of my face while I'm trying to help you set-up your wireless printing on your laptop.

*Korean guy I know
Seriously. I bet it would kill you to ask how I was once in a while before you come ask me for favors. Nope, you'd rather come track me down when you need something. Just like every other Korean I know. Well, at least you say thank you. And dude, if you are going to ask me to ask your crazy landlord for key replacements and have her snap at me AT LEAST tell me you lost your keys while you were drunk. (Your roommate was kind enough to share with me that you even lost them in your own apartment...)



What kept me sane? 

Trying to be more conscious and aware of myself and how I treat others.
Knowing that there are actually people there you can count on.
Trying to make the most of my semester.
Having a goal for this semester.
Blogging here.
Caffeine.

To end on a happy note...
 I would totally watch "GREE" religiously if it was a real show. 

MAN, Korea should actually get on this. Although, I could do without a few of the girls on here.