Courage, Bailing, & Great Conversations

Courage. 

I need to face my fears. Learn to fall. Learn to make mistakes. I know I have missed a lot of opportunities because of fear of rejection or failure. I need to start taking chances and if things don't work out I need to learn to overcome them and move on. That's the only way I will be able to grow as a person and become wiser. I can't keep shifting my life around to try to avoid potential potholes, hiding my feelings, and ignoring confrontations.

So, I need to collect myself and make friends with someone and stop fearing what I don't know.


Bailing. 

I'm so fed up. Once or twice, I can handle. Stuff happens, an explanation would be nice, but stuff happens. I don't ask, but does that mean you don't need to tell and explain yourself? I've given this person more than plenty of strikes. I would confront this person, but how can you confront someone that you don't even feel close enough to to share that you are dissatisfied with their actions, or rather lack of actions?

Please, don't initiate things and then bail on me a few hours before we plan an event, MULTIPLE TIMES. Don't make a promise you won't keep. I've lost count of how many times you've left me hanging and I'm not sure I really care anymore. I don't think it's fair to me and our other friend that we clear our schedules to meet with you or count on you being there, only to have you fail to keep your end of the bargain time and time again.


Great Conversations.

So I came home from a great workout with my girls DYB and JDX. I brought home a cake since it was my dad's lunar birthday (my grandma likes to celebrate his lunar birthday)...Now I know that my dad doesn't like to be the center of attention, but I like to show that I care and know that he would appreciate knowing that fact. We just got talking about the dinner with my relatives had that my brother and I missed out on. We got talking about family and life. I gain so much from sharing conversations with my mom, dad, and brother, gaining insight, sharing feelings, and discussing opinions. I miss spending time with them and cherish these kinds of moments I have with my family. I'm so lucky to have a foundation as stable as them to expand and build my life upon....I don't know what I'd do without them. I'm blessed.

What if? The music video is so cliche and made me dislike the song a little. Still, I love this song.  

Baby, what if? We can't tell the future, no, but that's just the beauty of the world we know...